The Paths

Thursday a friend told me that he was stick and left with two choices that is awkward to make either of it.
We then discussed about it and I told him that if there is supposed to be only one these two choices, his consideration of the consequences is of extreme importance for his final choice whatever it would be. We came to understanding that the outcomes of his decision makes a path of possible positive or negative consequences and of positive and negative I mean things in favor of his goals in life or apart from it. So eventually, what he decides would psychologically be satisfying for him. Anyhow, I’m unaware what he finally decided to do with the ways, yet I hope he would make a choice that won’t bring about his remorse in future of why he didn’t select the other path.

Back to my own thoughts, I wondered how sometimes we are so blinded by our obsessions with one or more things that it makes us forget about our pure nature, the humanitarian values and their necessity of existence or more funny than that is when the obsessions themselves become our pure nature and humanitarian values, which eventually makes us blinded to the existence of our natural needs or even somehow the people around us. That is perhaps where the Balance is most required.

I don’t know why my mental calculations just don’t stop processing the possibilities and pause its analysis to give me some sort of rest. It spontaneously jumps from subject to subject, from image to image, from present to past, from past to future. The actions, the risks, the outcome, and the relativity of my relations and so on, you just name it. It puts kind of emotional pressure that sometimes, I’m neither able to release nor bear. But then I guess it’s not just about me and that’s how everyone’s brain would do. Not considering this matter, I’m really glad that after almost a long time I’m slightly close to recover both my mental and emotional balance.

Ok, this one last thing and I promise myself I would finish moving to another subject for now! What was it! … Oh yes. This thing about Fate and Destiny, and the possible paths we might think we MUST confront. Well, based on my personal believes every person would choose his or her destiny in certain MOMENTs yet we still can’t deny the effect of other’s decisions and behaviors and their impact on our MOMENTs of choosing. What my friend and I discussed today, for instance, was part of what should be chosen between his two options when THE MOMENT arrives at him but Fate doesn’t work like that. Fate considers the other person’s options too. Before I get to my point, I should mention that firstly, you don’t know when THE MOMENT is going to arrive which means it can be any moment that you spend during your daily timeline and secondly, to the Fate, YOUR MOMENT of choosing, is a stable time and date and it IS going to arrive at you eventually. However, when THE MOMENT comes, Fate puts more than two options on the table, that is, we are going to have at least 3 options on the table (lets say we have 3 options there for not making it confusing more than it is).the first two options are yours to make , the third is for the other person involved. But What is Fates’ third option? The other person’s option is not to ask you the question that makes you give an answer, in other words, you no longer have been given the chance to reach make-the-choice part. If I want to be more clear, what I’m trying to say is THE MOMENT, which might happen to have a great effect on your future, arrives despite you can’t recognize it because you still haven’t been offered to make your choice and even if you can guess, under the condition that the third option would be applied, YOUR very MOMENT of choosing would change into an ordinary moment just like every other moment as it would simply pass by. THE MOMENT will then turn to, A Moment, which might never repeat itself again, and you will never have the opportunity to choose what is meant to be YOUR OPPORTUNITY OF CHOICE. So, sometimes when you feel like you want to evade your MOMENTs, you can ask of a higher being perhaps to make it never come forth. But then, why?
As THE MOMENT passes by, without you needed to select any path, you might temporarily feel relieved of the pressure that was stuck with your mind. But there is a possibility of you regretting the fact that YOUR MOMENT of choice was avoided and therefore you might wish to go back and have it. Alas! Time never moves back. I end this arguement the way it ends in my mind, with a simple question!
Why avoiding a confrontation, or even making a decision regardless of your truth of mind and emotions so that you leave a possibility of regretting your submitted decision?

Return of the Force

I have returned at this Sacred day.
Oh! Great Father...
the emptiness of my soul craved your being and you blew into my heart once more!
the sentiment of the Force shakes my very foundations,
Fills me with the Power of the universe, regenerates it-self in me.
I sense you inside. Welcome to me Father, i am of you.
For some month now, i was forbid with the powers and lost with the force.
Yet, I have returned, released from prison of self.
You opened the Gates and filled me with absolute enrgy.
I feel the flow of force within,
So strong through me it reborns that bursts beyond my being, the Aura of the Force.
I am filled with the wisdom of the light. Bringing my chaos to an end,it shall be freed to the nature beyond my physics, to my suroundings for others to be blessed with fine senses and energies.
I am filled with you, my God! My Father! My Protector! Supporter of all my life!
I sense the greatest joy, above denial.
The pain shall vanish,
the grief shall cease,
and the sorrow shall banshee.
I have returned once again, by my will and by you, to bring forth the unity of the nature within and the nature of beyond.
Wherever i go, life shall spread, kindness shall be, hope shall
bestow, courage shall flow, emptiness shall depart and love shall remain. For i have come to unleash, The Power of Love.

Dream of the Dawn

The sound of the tears of Nature is in my ears! Outside the window, rain falls on harsh ground,trims like my stream of words flowing upon the page finding a path of union in harmony. As my black pen runs out of ink, so does the clouds above. It's me Now, a dark and a dingy room, a paper, and a very pale light of the PC monitor. There are so much to say But how when the harmony's gone. Or even the motion of wind goes without a sound. Listen! ... they talk to me no more or maybe i so deaf to hear them telling me of their delight. It almost half past four in the morning and i' barely awake, waiting for sun to shine through, for a new dawn, a new day. My eyes are growing heavier and heavier as the daylight is slowly coming and under tons of exhaustion, Here ,at last, a new journey to the unknown world of Dream begins.

Intro

" Must you have battle in your heart forever? The bloody toil of combat? Old contender, Will you not yield to the immortal Gods? That nightmare cannot die, being eternal evil it-self --- Horrors, pain and chaos. There is no fighting her, no power can fight her, all that avails is fighting. (The Odyssey, Homer) "

A mind filled with words ...
A heart filled with emptiness ...
A life filled with conflict ...

Words full of beauty ...
Emptiness full of arrogance ...
Conflicts full of vitality ...

Such irony life is! As a description of a fertile ground filled with horror, pain and chaos; full of struggle in the seeking of something of worth... Even to a little bit! Happiness , Life and ... or maybe nevermore...